(forgive and forget) - 原谅和忘记
|(forgive and forget) - 原谅和忘记|
|Artist||b e g o t t e n 自杀|
|Catalog Number||GEO - 025|
|Release Date||December 24, 2018|
electronic; hard vapour; hardvapour; hushwave; spooky; vaporwave; vapour (b e g o t t e n 自杀)electronic; classic vaporwave; dark ambient; experimental; hardvapour; hushwave; hypnagogic; korean; lofi; post-vaporwave; vaporwave; vapour (Geometric Lullaby)
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|Previous Release||(happy anniversary) - 周年快乐|
|Next Release||(new aura) - 新时代|
(forgive and forget) - 原谅和忘记. ((forgive and forget) - (forgive and forget)) is an album released by b e g o t t e n 自杀 released through the label Geometric Lullaby, where it got cassette publications in the same year. It is the only b e g o t t e n 自杀 album to have 1 music video instead of 2.
|1||A1||(unprepared) - 措手不及
(unprepared) - unprepared
|2||A2||(unraveling) - 解开
(unraveling) - unraveling
|3||A3||(understanding) - 理解
(understanding) - understanding
|4||A4||(unfortunate) - 不幸的
(unfortunate) - unfortunate
|5||A5||(unending) - 无止境
(unending) - unending
|6||A6||(unconditional) - 无条件的 (MV)
(unconditional) - unconditional
|7||A7||(undeserving) - 不值得
(undeserving) - undeserving
|8||B1||(unless...) - 除非...
(unless...) - unless...
|9||B2||(bonus track) - 同情
(bonus track) - sympathy
b e g o t t e n 自杀
"Can I recognize feelings?
Can I sense that they're there?
Has all gone to numbness?
In place of despair?
I can ask for forgiveness
But I know it will never come
I can wait until you forget
But there's no ridding of what's been done
Maybe you'll forgive me when my neck is hung."
As stated in the last installment, I had finally been contacted by begotten once more. They had thanked me and for that, I was grateful. I emailed them back and thanked them for the submission and their music. I explained that people were enjoying it and that they should be proud.
This started a dialog back and forth for a bit. While I was not given any details about this person's whereabouts or who they actually were, they began describing to me the intense mental illness that they lived with. I actually hold a degree in psychology, so I understood a lot of what they explained.
But something (like most things involving this artist) seemed odd. The more emails I received, the more confident I was that I was not actually speaking with begotten directly. It was as if I was messaging someone who spoke for them; a caretaker perhaps? They spoke as though they'd studied the human psyche in depth and really knew the deepest feelings of begotten...but it just wasn't them.
I was in Europe with my band at this time on tour through Germany, so I have to admit, I was a bit distracted. I went for a little while without answering them (due to lack of WIFI and general busy-ness) and when I figured out how I would ask if it was someone speaking on begotten's behalf, I received one of the most disturbing emails yet.
The email contained Chinese text translating to extremely morbid words. At first, the text didn't seem to translate correctly. But in the end, I had a friend from China explain that it said they "would blow the shit out their own skull" with a gun.
There also was an attachment labeled "me"
It was a video.
I have yet to figure out what the video means, who it is, or what is going on in it. I uploaded it to youtube for you all to see as an unlisted video. If you click the link, you will be able to check it out:
Was this some staged, fake video? Is it taken from a movie or tv show or even another youtube video? If anyone recognizes it, let me know. The sound is unrecognizable to me, as is the individual.
I am going to take some more time of searching and processing this new development.
In the meantime, enjoy (forgive and forget) - 原谅和忘记 by b e g o t t e n 自杀
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